Okay, I know I haven't posted in forever, but I just need to talk for a bit.
I ask that you take everything I have to say with a grain of salt, because I may (on accident) offend you, and if so, I'm sorry. None of these comments are directed at ANY of you. There again, I just need to talk.
I am SO tired of hearing about babies. My husband and I really want a baby but we can't have one right now. That pisses me off. I am tired of hearing about everyone's little bundles of joy and how great they are, when I can't have one. I know that may seem selfish and childish, but I don't care, this is just how I feel.
I'm jealous. Yes, you heard me, jealous. PAINFULLY jealous of people that get to have what they want.
I am tired of being ignored. I have feelings, a heart, AND a brain. I'm not some random nobody that you can just walk by and pretend you don't see me.
I want friends. I don't care how desperate that sounds. I'm strong enough to admit that I need people. I'm so tired of feeling alone.
Some of you may say, "Well, you're never alone with God" and that's absolutely true. But I believe that God put people here for other people. I want people! People that I can talk to, share with, cry with, watch movies with, whatever.
I will admit to wanting to be loved. I don't feel very loved by anyone other than my family and my hubby.
I am tired of letting my husband down. He says that I'm not, but I know that I am. I try to fix it and I come up short.
Right now, I am feeling very lost.
Thanks for letting me vent.